So i have neglected this blog immensly. But why? ... simple. I was having the time of my life! Since my last post, not only was I only able to obtain an internship at the Ethical Fashion Forum, but was accepted onto a postgraduate course at the University of Arts London to study Public Relations.
Since August, I have seen a real change in myself (something that I could never had imagined after growing rapidly in maturity from all the travelling in the last year). I have attended fashion parties, London Fashion Week and even given public speeches - whilst still somehow fitting my studies in. (I got there in the end, even feeling in a constant state of sleepiness and stress).
However now its approaching Christmas, and I feel that there isnt much to celebrate. I literally have no money to my name .. and with Santander constantly screwing me over ... and barclays rejecting my career development loan (due to not having a job ... was this not the point of the loan?) and no paying job .. i can't go anywhere. It got to the point yesterday where I was forced to drink water while my friends drank water and ordered delicious, calorific food. I felt like a homeless person - getting the scraps and being so grateful for this and yes... i broke down. My friend offered to pay for a platter to share ... and suddenly before i knew it ... I was crying uncontrollably. A bit embarrasing when you don't want to be that 'weak girl'.
I have been offered job ... but again .. this will be at the cost of my long term career development. I just hope next new year I will be able to handle both and my efforts are recognised.
Friday 10 December 2010
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